Complicated

9 yrs wasted!

Thursday, 19 November 2009

yay!!! my laptop is fixed!!!
and so...i'm here agn =)

i have jus realised tt i have wasted 9 yrs of my life.
the 6 yrs in pri sch was wasted.
didn't gain any knowledge...
no matter how many promises i have made to study, i didn't fufill any.
maybe it was bcos of grandma...did i started to study jus a little
to jus pass my psle and get to the express stream.
then sec sch...
sec 1 was an extreme waste of time.
spent time wif frens, band, games, drama.
none on my studies...
sec 2 was a little better cos i get into a stressfull class. with zy around.
still, band and drama as usual.
then i made promises to study, to do well next time round.
but....they were jus empty promises.
sec 3 made a wrong decision.
though i was still in the same class as zy, i didn't spent time studying.
spent all my time on band...doing proposal proposal and proposal.
did things tt were not my job to cover him.
spent time using the comp and other non useful stuffs.

yes, tt 9 yrs was a waste!
i regret it!!! extremely!!!
and therefore, this time round, things r gonna change!
it shall be ur doom's day this time round!
it would be best if u read this!!!
listen up! YOU!
DONT EVER THINK TT I'M GONNA DO UR JOB AGN AND TO COVER U!
this shall be the last and final time! not any more!
you jus have to learn not to take things for granted!
u don't care? then y shld i?
maybe u jus care abt the rank...to show off?
wateva.
i tell u! i dont care abt rank or points.
sack me for all u can. i dont care!
since u dont take things seriously, since u like to play so much,
then i shall accompany u and play wif u!
i entered because of interest...but now...i have no more interest in it.
tt interest have gradually loss in this 3 yrs.

on 1/1/2010 i will focus 100% on my studies.
to not waste tt last yr in sec sch.
i'll do my very best.
to do my parents proud.
to do my sister proud.
to do my tchers proud.

ELENA ONG! this is ur last chance.
and yes, this time round its gonna be different.
i have wasted 9 yrs of my life, indeed.
and i cant change it.
hence i shall make 2010 the 1st year tt i have make full used of.

decisions?

Saturday, 31 October 2009

i'm here for a break!!!
do i have fear for books? hope not!
had headache since ytd, and i dunno y.
plan to complete the chinese ass bk by today.
wonder if i have the determination.
hmm...2 more to go! hang on!!!

after doing so many chinese exercises, i don think i can get an A.
i dunno why i will have this kind of feeling, but it's jus my instinct.
well...after so much practice, if i still cant get an A, then it's jus fate.
i'll jus pray tt my hard work will pay.
wateva results i get, i'll not regret taking HCL, cos i tried my best.
at least i gave myself a chance to prove tt my decision was wrong.
if i cant cont HCL, i will be disappointed, definitely, but i will not regret for not trying, i will not regret for not working hard enough.
then i'll cont to strive harder to get an A in sec 4.
i guess tt's the correct attitude for everyone to move on in life.

wz had an operation on her spine ytd.
wonder how is she now...
still uncertain if i shld go visit her on mon after bridging.
it wld be weird cos i'm not close to her.
plus, i dont think fel and e rest wld go.
tt means, if i'm going, i'll be alone cos i'm not close to the rest too.
but i think tt i shld go since we're classmates.
at least if i go, it would meant tt i have the basic concern for her as a classmate. isn't it?
haiz...such a diff decision to make.
well...i'll see how it goes cos i have to chiong chinese too.

cousin bday today!
but she's somewhere in australia.
can't get to see her=(
still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
she mus be mugging alone in some corner.

i wan my report book!!!

press on!

Friday, 30 October 2009

ptm today for the rest but not for me.
gonna get back my report bk on tue.
some how it seems good.
able to get to noe wat ms huang will most likely tok abt.
so...anyway. will be concentrating on chinese due to o lvl.
and i'll teach wq maths after my o lvl.
hope it will help...

not gonna go overseas this yr.
and my bro can't go cos i'm not going.
haha...so sry cos there's o lvl and i'm rushing for time.
will be going overseas after i finish o lvl in sec 4.

ok...special term for 2 wks b4 it's really holiday.
press on!!!

terrible?!

Monday, 26 October 2009

i seem to be even more busy even though EOY is over.
haiz...wat kind of life m i leading???
yes...now tt exams r over, i shld be able to relax.
BUT! CHINESE O LVL IS ROUND THE CORNER!!!
10/11 shall be the worse day ever...this year
pray hard tt i will get an A.
i wanna cont higher chinese! pls pls pls!!!
then...there's band camp.
still having a hard time wif the proposal. =(
when will it ever be complete?

PTM this friday.
dad is going to sch wif me cos mum is bz lately.
phew...no scolding =)

cca tmr...and there's O lvl going on too.
then there was this very last min thingy.
and if i didn't ask...i suppose he is not gonna tell us?
then wat will happen? another scolding frm the tchers?
and we will have to take all the blame agn.
then mr ong is sure gonna say smth.
and next he will come back to us and say tt we....blah blah blah...
once bitten twice shy.
not gonna let myself get another scolding frm them agn.
and so i took the initiative to ask.
yes, bcos of tt my msg bao. =.=
haiz...i wonder if i did the right thing.
seriously loss for words.
i m jus looking forward to nxt yr speech day.
wanna step dwn quickly and wash my hands of everyth.

30/10 was suppose to be our last day of sch where we get back our report bks.
however, there's special term this yr.
another extra 2 wks of sch. =(
i'm in no mood to study.
and i'm always like this after every exam be it mid yr or end of yr.

k...it's time to go now.
all the best to all those taking their O lvl tmr!
Jiayou =)

Complicated

Sunday, 25 October 2009

haiz...i wish i'll nv grow up =(
its such a complicated society.
will i ever get to uds?
nope...and i hope so too.
it is best not to noe anyth abt it.
i wish i can just stay in my own world forever.

ok...the sec4s and 5s seniors r gonna have their O lvl real soon.
on the 13 if i'm not wrong...
jiayou to all the seniors esp all the band seniors =)
good luck and all the best.
believe in urself, have confident and u can do it =)
let the band be proud of u k?
may god bless all of u =]